• Why standing in a queue triggered my social anxiety…

    This is a topic that I just discovered I wanted to talk about on Wednesday, social anxiety, so writing this up might be a little haphazard. I will do my best to ensure it makes sense. This all started with a visit to my local pharmacy. I had been there a few times, with Jack. He has really bad asthma so I’ve had to wait outside there for him, and seems like it always takes forever because I would be sitting there for about 30-40 minutes. It wouldn’t bother me at all.  I would just wonder if he is okay, usually when we’ve resorted to that it is because he…

  • 30 Life Lessons I’ve learned in 30 Years & My post 30 thoughts…

    I have many post 30th thoughts, I mean its me so yeah I have a few. But more than that I have feelings that are really hard to categorise as thoughts because they so jumbled up…  Why write about this? Reading over my blog post before my 30th, called The Count down is on… I was so excited, nervous.  There were so many factors that I was stressing over – one of them being having a party and people not showing up when they said they would without contact. Which, unfortunately, did end up happening. The general overview I got from reading my own post is strange. I just had…

  • The (30th) Holiday is Over…

    And has been for a month. The reasons behind my unintentional blogging hiatus and why I am so happy I went on my 30th holiday with my maw.  Where have you been? I honestly don’t know. Well I do, in my flat, living my life. Doing a classic ostrich, as in head in the sand procastination.  I’ve been feeling all over the place with anxiety, worry and just practical reasons – I had no one free to photograph me. I promised myself that I would keep up with my weekly posts. To have it fall so drastically short it was honestly so frustrating for me. I was so determined to keep…

  • The count down is on…

    7 days till I turn 30. The count down till I officially enter into my 30s and I am, for lack of better words, shitting it.  I feels very surreal. Like I’ve mentally stepped into a fog, a haze that has time both running fast and achingly slow.  Why are you mentally foggy? The fog is my mind trying to escape the fact that I will be 30. I will be 30 YEARS OLD. I can’t be 30 so soon. There is a certain weight that is added to your mind, to your physicality when turning 30.  Or so I fear.  My mum says that when I turn 30 I’ll…

  • Is porn ruining sex?

    This blog post is coming at an appropriate time, with the impending Digital Porn Ban the UK government is initiating, is porn a bad thing?  What is the Digital Porn Ban?  Thanks to Jack I watched a youtube video from TLDR News that explains this ban brilliantly, and simply. Check it out here. that explains this ban brilliantly, and simply. To put it simple the Ban is to add age verification on most porn sites to be over the age of 18, not the whole click yes if you are over 18 but an actual verification of who you are, along with your age. As I was reading the comments…

  • My first extensive self care treatment; Laser Hair Removal.

    Photography:  The Wee Glass Lens I have been thinking of getting this done for years. Laser hair removal  would mean never ever having to shave again….or is it?   What is laser hair removal? It is termed a cosmetic procedure that uses a powerful laser or ‘intense pulsed light’ (IPL) to remove unwanted hair.  The heat from this light destroys hair follicles in the skin., which disrupts hair growth.  It is most effective on women with pale skin and dark hair.  The above statements I got from NHS website. If you want to know more check it out here.  I went to Signature Clinic on West Regent Street for it.…

  • Why I love Sex and the City inspired Cocktails and catch ups…

    Ever since I watched Sex and the City growing up I have always envisioned myself with 3 friends having a good fruity cocktail and catching up on each others news. The double C’s – cocktail and catch ups or coffees and catch ups. Was anyone else obsessed with Sex and the City? Or SNTC? I used to have to watch SNTC in secret. Like a hidden taboo. I remember it being on late on a Friday night. I used to have to initially watch it in secret because my mum didn’t want me watching ‘inappropriate’ content.  Which tbh SNTC isn’t inappropriate at all. Not by todays standards. Maybe back that…

  • Is being in love scary?

    Yes, in a nutshell. Being in love is a scary notion. Especially when you’ve been hurt in the past. It is a fear that resonates through your whole body and sometimes leaves you paralysed with fear.   Why write about love being scary? I was looking for inspiration. No topics were jumping out to me, nothing was making me want to type, no topics were jumbling around my mind. I had a mind blank, when your looking for topics to write about there has to be a line between what you share and what you don’t share. Like when I wrote my blog post about Neil, my step dad’s passing…

  • My struggle to feel pretty…

    I can be pretty… Even typing this out makes me feel uncomfortable. It makes me feel arrogant and up myself. Which I know I’m not. But the struggle to feel pretty shouldn’t just be an issue of arrogance.  Being called ugly is something I am quite well acquainted with. Being called ‘ugly’ is something I used to get really upset by. I mean who wouldn’t? I think for everyone its like a trigger word that brings on a floodgate of shame, embarrassment and lowered self esteem. Or even sadness.  But why does that word hurt so much? I know ugly is a negative word. I know it is. It is…

  • How I Shop Red Carpet Looks on a Budget…

    I have been really interested in red carpet looks recently… And its because I am in planning mode. My 30th Birthday is coming up in 9 weeks and I want an amazing outfit to feel all glam and laaaaaa.  I know laaa isn’t really a word but its more like a sound… just all lalalaaaaa. Do you know what I mean? Or maybe not ahaha.  I usually have an idea or inspiration in mind (for going out out outfits) and I go direct to it but for my 30th birthday I am drawing a blank. I am not sure if its because I don’t feel like I’ll be 30 soon.…